i finally got my math book today in the mail, i feel so relieved. i don't know why either, i guess knowing that i have the math book makes me feel a lil less stressed out.

so sunday i took paul out for his birthday dinner, i was going to take him out the sunday before, but we were just too tired & really not hungry at all. i took him to claim jumper for dinner, oh how i love that place. he's never been! i showed him the mother load chocolate cake that michelle & i were going to get the last time we we're there, he was in awe. took him forever to decide what he wanted to order, i had to warn him that the porportions that they serve are pretty big.

after dinner we were extremely full, & yet we we're still eyeing the mother load cake. come on now! how can you go wrong with a six layer chocolate cake!? instead we opt for some chocolate calzone....okay it was my first time ordering the dessert there, did not think they would be big porportions. i think we left about one & a half of a chocolate calzone left, evil he is....trying to get me to finish the last one knowing how full i was. we sat in the booth & talked for a lil while, just so that we can let our dinner & dessert settle.

after dinner, we were debating whether we should see a movie or talk. we hardly ever get a chance to talk to each other let alone see each other. so we just sat in my car & talked for three hours, about anything...ocassionally we would just sit in silence holding hands. i love the fact that i can just sit next to him & not worry that i have to say something, or that we have to talk all the time. i love just sitting with him, & just being together.

the only thing about ending our dates is knowing that it'll be about another week before we can see/be around each other. it really makes me sad. our goodnights always last an hour or two, first i'll say it's time we get leaving & he'll say just a few more minutes. then when he says it's time to go, i'll ask for just a few more minutes. this time he really got to me, i told him how i hated this part of our night out & how i hate that i don't get to see him as much & especially with school starting. what he said made me happy.

him: i know this is going to sound lame. but as long as you're thinking about me i'll always be in you heart, & when i'm thinking about you, you'll be in heart. okay go ahead & laugh at me now.

i couldn't say anything at all, i didn't know what to say. all i could do is give him a great big hug. i love hugging him. when i hug him, i feel safe.

he makes me feel like i'm the luckiest girl around.