justherluck

always in my heart....

Wed, 30 Aug 2006 06:50:17 GMT

i finally got my math book today in the mail, i feel so relieved. i don't know why either, i guess knowing that i have the math book makes me feel a lil less stressed out.

so sunday i took paul out for his birthday dinner, i was going to take him out the sunday before, but we were just too tired & really not hungry at all. i took him to claim jumper for dinner, oh how i love that place. he's never been! i showed him the mother load chocolate cake that michelle & i were going to get the last time we we're there, he was in awe. took him forever to decide what he wanted to order, i had to warn him that the porportions that they serve are pretty big.

after dinner we were extremely full, & yet we we're still eyeing the mother load cake. come on now! how can you go wrong with a six layer chocolate cake!? instead we opt for some chocolate calzone....okay it was my first time ordering the dessert there, did not think they would be big porportions. i think we left about one & a half of a chocolate calzone left, evil he is....trying to get me to finish the last one knowing how full i was. we sat in the booth & talked for a lil while, just so that we can let our dinner & dessert settle.

after dinner, we were debating whether we should see a movie or talk. we hardly ever get a chance to talk to each other let alone see each other. so we just sat in my car & talked for three hours, about anything...ocassionally we would just sit in silence holding hands. i love the fact that i can just sit next to him & not worry that i have to say something, or that we have to talk all the time. i love just sitting with him, & just being together.

the only thing about ending our dates is knowing that it'll be about another week before we can see/be around each other. it really makes me sad. our goodnights always last an hour or two, first i'll say it's time we get leaving & he'll say just a few more minutes. then when he says it's time to go, i'll ask for just a few more minutes. this time he really got to me, i told him how i hated this part of our night out & how i hate that i don't get to see him as much & especially with school starting. what he said made me happy.

him: i know this is going to sound lame. but as long as you're thinking about me i'll always be in you heart, & when i'm thinking about you, you'll be in heart. okay go ahead & laugh at me now.

i couldn't say anything at all, i didn't know what to say. all i could do is give him a great big hug. i love hugging him. when i hug him, i feel safe.

he makes me feel like i'm the luckiest girl around.

this sinking feeling

Tue, 29 Aug 2006 05:13:32 GMT

so today i managed to borrow a math book from my teacher, because the person who i bought the book from is taking forever and a day to send me my book. well i started my homework & as i started, i began to get confused & unsure of what i was doing. i feel like i'm lost.

this is bad, i can't feel this way already. i have to pass this math class, i don't want to go back & take the other lame math classes. i feel like i'm going to be panicing already. i just have this sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach. i'm really going to have to pull my weight in my math class.

i'm worried this means seeing A LOT less of paul. that makes me sad.

i bow before you...oh ebay!

Wed, 16 Aug 2006 02:07:59 GMT

so aftering searching for a good deal on some spy mc sunglasses & ending up empty handed, i turned to ebay for help. so many to choose from...man how am i to decide!? with all the patience & looking i found them! spy mc POLARIZED sunglasses...i got them at a cool $87 bucks!! YAY!! i just got them today in the mail & they are just AAAAMAZING!!

shoot paul best love this birthday gift. i'm done! good day everyone!

dear scheduler...

Wed, 09 Aug 2006 03:16:23 GMT

dear scheduler,
i just thought i would leave a note telling you how much i ~~hate~~ loathe you! my plans for this fall semester is to screw with you, since you have decided that i "might" not be able to get the days that i need for school. i hope you realize how much of a douche bag you are, & also i hope you know that i'm not the only person who hates you.

sincerly,
arlene

i really thought this was going to be a fun week, ya so much for that. grrr! there are days where i just hate my job...with a passion. then there are the days where i'm just meh, about the whole thing.

p.s. i just being so emotional, & bout stupid stuff at that. shame on me.

ebay..you are evil

Sun, 06 Aug 2006 03:21:39 GMT

today i realize how evil ebay can be...once your hooked, it all downhill. i cave & bought myself a new ipod skin...normally it costs $35 bucks...i got the skin for $27 bucks. now i'm looking at sunglasses & watches for the boyfriend, his bithday is coming up later this month.

dear ebay,
there are days where i just hate you. why? because once i see the great bargins that i can get, i just can't seem to stop buying from you. you are the devil!

sincerly,
arlene

in other news, my mom is trying to convince me to go to vegas with her & dad next weekend. that means i'm going to have to call in, then again...that means i can go shopping at the outlet shops out there in search for a gift for paul. maybe then i could tell my parents that i have a boyfriend. yes they don't know & it's been three months. go ahead & laugh!

"Enjoy your cruise around the world."

Sat, 05 Aug 2006 05:49:59 GMT

so today was my second shift today at small world...since i got trained...a MONTH AGO! maybe i should have asked for a refresher on what i need to remember on that damn ride. so lucky me i got to open the key position today...haven't done that since training. did i mentioned i got trained a month ago!? key position is simple i just get to switch the little valve that's in the water, which basically controls which side the boats should go to. certain boats are tagged with a white poll, that suppose to go to a certain side cause that's wheel chairs. then you just have to make sure not to jam the valve right where the wheel is on the boat.

well i made three mistakes at key today, & i was only there for a half hour. man..my first day was waaaay better than today. key is nice cause you sit in the shade, but then the evilness called daydreaming takes over. totally daydreaming was i, then totally sent a wheel chair boat to the wrong side, then i jammed a boat 10 minutes later. shame on me! for goodness sakes!! i'm a trainer on an attraction that's waaay more difficult than small world! best part of the day i got north & south side confused. could my day have gotten any better!?

yup! when i was off i had to take off to get my costume for my wonderful 5am shift on monday morning, cause i get to wax bobsleds. in the depressing thought of having to wear pants in the hot weather to wax sleds, i forgot my lunch bag. our parking is soo far, i didn't realize till i got to my car. with my luck i remember that after 4pm, they open the parking lot that's not much of a walk. i think i was just a lazy person today, because i have saturday sunday off. so i just completely checked out...mentally today.

called paul when i was off & i got to talk to him for awhile. something was bothering him yet he wouldn't tell me what, well not over the phone. i love that he'd rather tell me what's up with him him in person & not over the phone. he's not much of a phone person, he's more of a talk in person. i know this, but still there are days where we don't get to see each other or don't have the time to just be with each other to talk. talked to him for an hour & after my shower i checked my phone & i got a text message from him today. he apologized for not being more talkative, all i could text him back was just hearing his voice today is better than not hearing from him at all.

i hate that we live far from each other. he lives out in south county, then there's me in the l.a. county area, our job is our in between. honestly...it sucks. then right now our schedule is all weird, i asked for friday & saturday off so that we can at least work the same days. yet that's too much to ask for cause i had last weekend off, then i have satuday sunday off again this week & again next week. on top of that i'm now pulling most of my shifts at small world, so i start later than him. if i think this sucks now, i'm nervous about when school actually starts up again. he says we'll have weekends, but i wonder if we'll really have weekends together.

we'll both be super busy with school, he's taking on 16 units this semester so that he can get ready to transfer to UCI. then once i talk to a transfer counselor & if it's true that i can transfer after this year, then i'm going to haul ass on my classes & focus on that. i'm excited at the thought that i'll be able to go to a cal state again, & i'm excited that i actually have a major in mind now. i feel that i'm oh so close to finally growing up, it's scary & exciting all at once.

i'm feeling tired & i have a quite the list of chores ahead of me tomorrow, so with that i'm off.

p.s. paul was the waxer this week so i lent him my ipod for the shift. when he gave it back to me he left me a song to listen to on my way home....yellowcard - only one. i think he's amazing...paul that is.

starting a new...

Sun, 30 Jul 2006 23:13:41 GMT

i never thought the day would come where i would feel that i would need a new username on livejournal. yet the day has finally come. it's been forever since i wrote in my last journal. i do plan on keeping up with this one.

so much has changed since my last entry, then again some things really havent changed at all. still working at the house of mouse these days. honestly i'm trying to enjoy myself, it's hard though especially when you're working with retarded people. there are days where i feel that i'm the only trainer on the matterhorn that likes to have fun. everyone else seems to have their own agenda, whether it's back stabbing others or talking crap behind their backs. it's all soo high school. i come in to do my job & have fun at it, yet their are managers that seem to not be able to take a joke.

aside from work, i think this is going to be my last year at Cypress Community College. i need to talk to a transfer counselor to make sure that i only have 6 classes to take before transfering. so the colleges that i'm looking at are Cal State Long Beach, California Polytechnic State University-San Luis Obispo & Cal State Fullerton. i finally decided on a major...criminal justice, i'm thinking within the forensic science department. i was thinking medical examiner, but that would take too long & honestly i don't think i have what it takes to do that job.

i'm lucky to have an amazing boyfriend, whose been encouraging me to do whatever it is that i choose to do with my life. he feels that i have what it takes to be a medical examiner, then again i think he's just saying that cause he's the boyfriend.

he's almost done with community college himself. he's majoring in Mechanical Engineering if not that then drafting. i know he's got what it takes to become a Mechanical Engineer. sheesh, especially with the units & classes that he takes. man! i have no idea how he does it all.

he trys to keep me sane at work. yes it's true we work together at disneyland. how lame are we?